all2true's Struggle

[all2true]

Well I asked for it.
I thought I would do my own forum for this.
I am following Dirtyjack's instructions,
see post:
http://www.milovana.com/forum/viewtopic ... 512#p20527
Re: Introductory topic
by dirtyjackau on Tue Nov 18, 2008 2:18 pm
I am starting this already at day 8 of denial.

Here are my Instructions:

all2true - well ok - if you cant wear no underwear - you'll need to wear tight girls panties, no excuses this time please, just make it happen. Apart from that seeing as 4 edges is two easy - you'll do 7 per day, plus 2000 strokes - these don't all have to be in a row, and any strokes you do for edging don't count! *grins*

Your tease for the day is: http://www.milovana.com/webteases/showtease.php?id=3322

Have fun! Don't cum!

Jack...


The tight panties are no problem
My R/L Mistress lent them to me laughing the whole time.
Wow Edges, strokes and a web tease? Fun!
This is just the intro because I got these instructions at the end of my day
will be posting tomorrow night again after I do the assignment. (which will be day 9)

[all2true]

Daily Denial Journal (day 9 of denial)
I usually hate journaling.
But am excited (in many ways) about today.

I woke up at around 9 am
And started stroking in bed, before I even went to pee.
When doing a large number of strokes it’s a good idea to break them into groups
I count by tens first 8, 9, 40, 1, 2….to 100.
I do 100 strokes and take a break, then another 100, and keep track of the hundred’s.
I seem to always have trouble counting out the 90’s; I want so much to be at 100.
And so I did 1,200 strokes this morning and took a bath, then did the other 800.
I hit 4 edges just doing the strokes this morning.

Picked a pair of light green panties for the day.

Did 2 edges during my lunch time, while watching my Hentai porn.

After work did my 20 minutes of intense exercise proscribed by my mistress
And then did my five edges. Took a 20 min. break.
And then read the teases. It was a tease on hypnosis. Was a story tease, hot model, wasn’t hard to keep an erection through reading it.

Whew. Finished the day w/o cumming. 1am (after midnight)

The experience of wearing the panties at work was- Interesting
It felt like a feather was touching the inside of my dick a kind of burning, tickling feeling. I had lots of energy – which I channeled into activity.

Very interesting day, I feel like a sex addict without the sex, it’s a high of some kind but not sure what I’m buzed on.
Wonder what tomorrow brings?

PS. How the heck do I post a photo on forum? (Had a great pic of a lady wearing just the green panties I had on)

[all2true]

Ah yes - no edging during your 2000 strokes *huge grins*

So I am to do anouther 2000 today then Hmm...
I have not tried stroking without edging (never seen the point) But I'll give it a try.

Give us some links to stuff you really like... on and just to toughen things up a little more - strokes or edges you do while looking at Hentai porn don't count

Will take longer to do edges without vids, but alright.

As for porn I only use free vid sites
Redtube, Pornhub, Pornkolt, and Youporn I love watching ladies masterbate or edge (makes me wish I was helping)

I will report again tonight.

[all2true]

Daily Denial Journal (day 10 of denial)
I had errands to do this morning
So I didn’t get to stroking today until 1
My mistress said I didn’t have much time, that we need to go for an appointment so I

Did my 7 edges hurriedly without porn, only short breaks in between each edge.
Each edge is giving a bit of a very mild burning sensation in my balls and gut.
Very difficult not to go over with short breaks.
The fifth edge had me shaking, trembling all over, but Mistress was hurrying me to get moving for an outing.
Six, the inside of my legs are on fire as well.
Damn, seven was hard, Whole body shaking. Just barely stopped. (gasp)
Took a bath, am still shaking.

Jack didn’t mention panties, but I figured they were implied
So I quickly asked my mistress, she was Pissed about getting to our appointment and had me put on the Exact same pair as yesterday, “Don’t be leaking all over all of my stuff!”
Guess I’ll have to go shopping for some, hope I have time for everything today.

Only got in 200 strokes during the day.

Focused on the web tease, Massaged balls, yup very full.
Following instructions…
And No I would like being denied the rest of my life…
Stoked to edge, oh that was a dream? (and I was not supposed to be stroking-oops)
Page 7 - five minutes of stroking with ball teases.
Interesting feeling bound balls bouncing with stroking (page8)
1minute 25 sec on third edge- get ball smacks for that-(not doing them)
Another edge, Sensitive after polishing
2 minutes of ball slaps? (Ummm, nope. Milovana rules: nothing you don’t like)
I think she’s lying about the edge so I go for fast – Am distracted because I did try a few light slaps.
2 min 22 sec. Get more ball slaps-nope.
Did the 3 edges
Finished the tease

Went for my 20 min exercise (still wearing panties)
Any of you ever wear panties in a gym? Get a private stall.
Ps the link for the panty photo is:
http://www.dailywenches.com/images/thum ... 8_nips.jpg

Slow going on the 1,800 strokes.
So with the tease did 13 edges, and 2000 strokes. Found the stroke count a bit dull.
About as much fun as washing dishes. ( I get a kiss for it so dishes has some reward)

Reflections: day old panties don't tickle as much, the fast edges were really difficult. It's easier to storke without edging after exercising. (body is distracted with the pain of musles)

[all2true]

First thing this morning my Mistresss greets me in the nude,
(sob)
There I am with a raging hard on and my day has not yet begun!

So I log on, look at my tease I am editting, thanks Seraph for restoring
lost pages (I am defenitely keeping a back-up this time)
(My beat the tease -is down for technical problems.

Check my messages and Nothing from Jack
Hmmm.
Well I still have my edges and stroking to do, will look for the tease later.

[all2true]

Daily Denial Journal (day 11 of denial)
While the cat’s away…

No Instruction from Jack
So I started my stroking
Boring, after 600 I stopped. I’d rather spend time with my mistress
Just watching TV with her as she rests (no stroking)
She fell asleep
So I tested out my own tease a bit, doing the ten minute path
With editing probably ended up doing 15 min of stroking (reached one edge)
Looks like the ten minute path is solid.

I want to cum so bad today, I’m not sure I have ever gone this long without an orgasm and doing teases.

Did 4 edges before work, they are definitely more difficult to do without going over.

Checked milovana before I headed out to work
Am to do ten edges, Great, perhaps I wasn’t bad after all! (got 5 edges out of the way)
Looking forward to the webtease
Will post this then update with an edit tonight after work
Today’s Panties:
http://www.pinkems.com/content/bad_girl ... es_009.jpg

[tzdndenied]

WOW! i stay out of Milo for a day or two...so many interesting things have popped up...a new diary to sneak a peak at...giggles.

Good luck all2true...seems our "boinging!" boy going to make this quite hard on you!

Wondering if he is viewing all the new webteases lately...

kristin

[all2true]

I was going to edit my last post

Did my strokes before exercising
And then edged five times to this video:
http://www.redtube.com/10418

PS, Kristin You'll LOVE it.
I actually had to stop watching after minute 6 because I
was so sensitive I could not touch myself.

Reflections on the Day:
DAMN I had a ton of energy today
maybe there is something to that - no sex before a fight thing
I was on fire at work.
I am not working tomorrow but have errands and school work to do
so I'll be just as busy.

Have learned how to adjust to 'normal' panties
will have to push myself to silk ones soon.

Oops, realised I had not looked at the web tease:
http://www.milovana.com/webteases/showtease.php?id=46
Ack! this is on my fav's list because it's so difficult

I took a break after the vid,
was easy to have precum on page one today (usually difficutl)
I did 10 ball slaps on page 4 (still not a big fan of it- but really needed the distraction)
page 5 -I begging the tease to be over (knowing its longer)
gave myself a good wack on page 6
two hand palm method for page 8
Page 9 stroke any way I want? how about not at all? am so horney-Ooof
followed the instructions on page 10 for the first time ever
Hard not to go over on page 11
in order to follow the instruction on page twelve I toggled the video back on,
Yes balls very, very full
anouther edge
Reached the end the tease Damn it the time was 1:10 am- and I'm not cumming
Groan.

Um Jack I don't know how many edges I did to day
I know I did what you asked
but my brain just doesn't have enough blood right now, it's all - elsewhere
Did make it w/o cumming (gasp)
Not sure I want to read what's for tomorrow (not really, still looking forward to it)

[tzdndenied]

http://www.redtube.com/10418

PS, Kristin You'll LOVE it.
I actually had to stop watching after minute 6 because I
was so sensitive I could not touch myself.

Arrrrgh...noooooo! Not this early in the morning!

Miss Arianna, please! Need permission to touch myself very bad right now!

kristin

[all2true]

Day 12
A whole new level of fun (hell)…

Nice! I want you to do one edge as fast as you can as soon as you wake up too from now on, just to remind you of how horny you are as soon as you wake up!

You also said wait till later, but I decided to do the edge this morning before
getting up and buying panties

My Wife/ Mistress caught me mastebating!
So she helped! GoD I love her, when she edges me its so dif, then when I do myself.
Much more head play, unforseen stops and starts (Arrrrrg!) (Gasp, Gasp)
reported my task of buying panties.
She said,"You better be using your own damn money"

By the way - Indigo love the pic. (still trying to figure out the file-share side of doing the pic as a post- just linking for now) Oh and No fair! ( still in denial)
We are going out to eat this morning then shopping- which could get intresting.

Well my mistress decided I had not been tormented enough with this morning edge
So she had me dance with her, both of us naked for the waist down (boing)
It was a bottomless party - aka-Harold & Kumar Escape from Guantanamo Bay
Then I did her laundry (you betcha I was doing it the laundry quickly today)

OH my… All2true is in trouble! !! !!!!
Mistress asked to watch while I edge later today-
(Words fail at this point)

EDIT:

Well after shopping I bought a three pack of silky panties (which means 15 edges)
My Mistress wanted to insure a high level of difficulty so she helped me with six edges
Pushing e closer to going over each time, She was laughing saying You can cum if you want, Soooo mean.
Oh my am I shaking after those six had to take a short break.

http://www.youporn.com/watch/244217/girl-play/
was the video My mistress edged me tosaying, "Keep your eyes on it, I know you love this"
I Did edges 6, and 7 to the same vid.

Then started:
http://www.youporn.com/watch/266960/ash ... ussy-hard/
Almost went over on edge 11
Edge 15 My Mistress helped out again pushing me (Gasp, Gasp)
I want to cum so bad!
My balls were truly blue by the time I was done.

Reflections: Drool, um what, thoughts? Er, what’s that?
And I still have to excersise!

Jack just so you know Sunday is a very busy day, family, work, wife, will have very little time.
Oh the photo of the panties…
http://www.carefreecasuals.com/Products ... rce=NEXTAG

(Sorry I could not find a better pic than the package of panties)

[all2true]

Altually Jack
the one's I purchaced
were the microfiber kind
No cotton.
Sorry if I posted the wrong link on the photo
was really hard to find the right photo, Actual fibers of the panties:
"Solids 95% Nylon, 5% Spandex, Prints 64% Polyester, 31% Nylon, 5% Spandex,
100% cotton croctch liner"
I specificially asked the sales lady for silky and /or sheer and this is what She Showed me,
Hanes Body Creations (3 pack)
My Mistress was wondering if people would figure out I was buying them for myself. (with her with me?)

And your instructions did not include the edge in the morning (by the way I did do a 16th edge last night- BURNing sensation in both dick and stomack, Mistress forgave me the daily exercises, saying I had had quite a work out yesterday

DAY 13 of Denial
checking out today's assignment
very good chance I wont have time for all of them
R/L is a priority
will try my best though
so after my morning edge stated the webtease
Hmmm, something is wrong with the picture in the webtease
Jack picked, Big White Square of missing picture
Not breathing part is difficult.
Using the computer clock for timing holding breath
Can’t make it past 35 seconds
Damn you would think with all that exercising my lung capacity would be better
Quickly checked another webtease, just to see if picture problem is prevalent
Ahh, there is a ‘bug’ the window for the words is obscuring the photos.
Decided to tease myself for the times as much as possible while breathing (will have to work on lung capacity another day)
Page 8, I can hold 15 sec…
Should stop on page ten if I was really following instructions
(Because I really can’t hold my breath that long)
Did the edge in the tease.
Air? Plz? Whew.

Decide to keep going on edges this morning
So I decide to restrict myself to today’s videos
This one is the one I liked best from Youporn:
http://www.youporn.com/watch/267171/kay ... -stunning/

Edge three already difficult not to go over
4, Balls burning.
5 also difficult
Video ended (was doing fast edges)
Grabbed breakfast
I didn’t edge to this one but thought it was fun enough to post a link:
http://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?v ... 12a2dc84ad
(Its cold out there!)
Did my last two edges to this vid:
http://www.pornhub.com/view_video.php?v ... 860127ac82
Seventh edged, leaking
Only made it 9 min on the video.
Whew
I didn’t think I would be able to edge again today (after yesterday)
But as soon as I put on my panties (did this before edging) Boing!
(Intresting conditioned response)

[all2true]

For those following this forum
I am sorry to say
that I am going to have to quit.


The reasons are personnal.
and I have enjoyed
being teased by Jack
Did a great job

But I am NOT continuing this thread

Please accept my appologies.

[tzdndenied]

For those following this forum
I am sorry to say
that I am going to have to quit.

But I am NOT continuing this thread
Please accept my appologies.

all2true,

No apologies are necessary! Hopefully things are okay, hopefully you will still be around.

Must say, was impressed with you allowing jack to "top" you...most guys i know, wouldn't have the courage to post the details nor admit a guy was "topping them"

See you soon!


kristin

[cumhardy]

Aw i never got a chance to comment while you were being denied (been on a 3 day bender) now i come back and you have stopped. Aw well, Ive had fun reading through it all... gotta say your stamina and self-control are very impressive. your definately one of the hardcore :D

[all2true]

I'll post it here
My Mistress
was not feeling well
and I was concerned about her.

Was not a negative experince
and went to day 14 (record for me)
before orgasming (with permission of course)