Attempting a "Nightmare becomes reality" series

[Nezhul]

SPOILERS MAY HAPPEN!
I'll try to encase any spoilers in the spoiler tag, but messages of other people or anything else can spoil the fun for you, so continue at your own risk.


So I'v been reading another guy's thread about how he does the "Days of denial with Amy" series (http://www.milovana.com/forum/viewtopic.php?f=2&t=9684), and thought: Why don't I do the same, now that I decided to start one series for real?
Well, no reason not to try, Let's hope the thread will be some help to my awful self-control in the matter of denial.

First of all, I'm 25yo male, I consider myself mostly dominant, but some aspects of submission to an attractive and demanding female are a great turn-ons for me. I wouldn't lead a lifestyle of nor dom not sub, rather I prefer being Vanilla with some kinky games from time to time.
Masturbation was always about orgasm for me, so after finding the site I'v been mostly about orgasm delay. It really makes the orgasm better. But I'v long ago wanted to try a real denial, and most I'v got to was like 3-4 days, which is not much in comparison to some other guys here. Most of the times I'v became so horny that I'd go "Oh to hell with it!" and regreat it a minute later when the orgasmic bliss subsides and disappointment kicks in. I hope of changing that trend now. I'm not an orgasm maniac, sometimes I go without orgasm for 1-2 weeks completely naturally, whem I'm single - just don't want it much and have other things to ocupy my mind. But that's not an achievement and it doesn't go with that feeling of desperate urge and craving I want to experience.

I'v chosen this series because it seemed rather mild in comparison to others. It's not too long (a week), it doesn't involve dozens of edges each day, It's well-written, the girl is cute and good behaved, it doesn't have CBT in it, nor has it hudge plains of story text. Ideal for me. If someone knows another series that suits those terms - let me know.

So, here goes.

Day1
Was really good. I'v done it at around noon (used TeaseMe for good quality, and will continue doing so). Some stroking, some edging. I won't do spoilers, but I say the story, as such, is well done, and I especially love it being put DURING the stroking in the form of conversation. The girl we are dealing with seems devious but nice.
It was pretty easy to complete, but it still left me horny for the day, especially given that I last masturbated and came 2 days ago. I also feel somehow fulfilled about being under her control, and looking forward for happy frustrating tomorrow.
It also made good impact on my work on my own tease, we'll se if I'll be able to finish it by the end of the week ;)
Apart from that, nothing to say actually. Feeling good, feeling horny but not desperate yet.

[Tobias23]

Yeah I inspired you, now I feel like a champ! :)

Talking about spoilers reminded me to put a spoiler warning in my introduction post. Thanks.

Hope we both make it till the end :)

[Nezhul]

God damn, making my own tease now, have to look at a ton of photosets... challenging.
but feels nice.

[computergeek]

First off I got to say you have a real gift for writing fiction, setting a mood. I forget who posted it but they said to ignore what is popular and just write what interests you the most, something you yourself would enjoy. I am in a similar situation, dominant male, no real desire for submission, single at the moment with no prospects. I enjoy the delay of orgasm, not the denial. I also enjoy the teases more if it is more a game than a story, or some sort of interaction. Like the teases I have experimented writing, I try to get some form of feedback from the user while in the game. It may be subtle, but trying to make it something where it matches the mood you are already in, not forcing you to go some place specific or trying to make a point of how much you can endure. But those are my own tastes, everyone is different. Write what you like.

[Nezhul]

Day2
First of all, I slept really bad. Don't know was it denial or something else (I'm pretty shure half the night I dreamed about WoW raid being a total failure in every aspect, lol). So I got up early, did some work on my own tease, and then at about noon decided to go for part 2.
First thing I want to say - too many text on the pages that change quickly. Sometimes I didn't have time to admire the picture. My reading speed is good, it's just that pages are real quick. Even a few seconds longer would be nice. That's the one thing that disappointed me a little bit, but overall the tease was great and just the ammount of stroking and edging I loved.
However in the very end I failed. Yup, that was an accident, but in my defence I should say I couldn't stop it, I didn't even think it CAN happen. That was a failure not on my part, but if you really want to know what happened - read the spoiler. I encourage you to NOT read it if you want to try on this tease, because it IS a big spoiler IMO.

Spoiler: show

So, the tease went good, edging and stroking as I said. And then she said that she'd make me edge one last time and then slap my balls 5 times right after the edge. I'm not into CBT at all, but I was pretty turned on, and that request was put in a good way, it didn't demand to do it hard, so I thought: "To hell with it, why not?! I'll slap them not really hard and see what it adds to the experience"
And at that point I should say that I never EVER did this thing before. I slapped my balls in a tease a few times before, because I was curious (didn't find that amusing though), but not after edging.
So I got to the edge, and after the first (pretty light) slap I shoot the load. Well, that was unexpected. I was so surprized I didn't even quite feel any pleasure. But an accident it is, and it pretty much ruined my mood for the rest of the day, I think.

I'm REALLY disappointed that it happened. Also I'm disappointed because even if I play it the second time - it will not be the same. No surprise, I know what she'll say and do to me. Really REALLY disappointed. Not in the tease and not even in myself (because I know I did nothing on purpose, not a single bit), but disappointed in the unfair world in general. I was looking forward to stopp stroking and continueing through the day and through the week... and it's gone now. I think I'll try the series again after a short break needed to figure out how to not let the unfortunate accident happen AGAIN.

Really good tease though.
Oh and I encourage people who'll answer something that may spoil the contents of the tease to use spoilers too.

[lechuck]

Day2
First thing I want to say - too many text on the pages that change quickly.

and i thought it's my bad english that i read just too slow.

i did day2 yesterday...again, as ruindoh released the first parts i did them but stopped as it was too much tentalizing to wait for the next day in the series more then 1day ;D.
so i am back and later on this day i hope i manage day3, so far i think 2out of 7 days is not that much so you will have fun the next time you try it.

**edit**
thanks for your teaseme remake, i really liked it and hopefully i dont have to switch tabs to watch the video wich is in part3

[Nezhul]

thanks for your teaseme remake

I didn't do nuffin. (c)

[Tobias23]

Sad to hear you failed, and thanks for the spoiler warning. I am really curious what made you fail. Mental note to myself: Must try this series soon. ^_^

[Nezhul]

Well I hate being stuck too, but all below 30 seconds (including) is OK to admire the good picture.

[Nezhul]

Second Attempt: Day1
So after an unfortunate accident I'v taken a little break and today I felt like starting it all over. I didn't actually masturbate yesterday, so you may say that my last enjoyable orgasm was 5 days ago, and I'v played only this series in the meantime. Of course I had an accident, but I really cant say was it ruined or not. On the one hand, I didn't feel horny after it, and yesterday pretty much past without me thinking of sex so much. On the other hand, I really felt almost NOTHING, mostly because I was so surprised and disappointed it happened, so can it be considered a ruined one?
Can't tell...
Anyway, it was definitely NOT enjoyable the very least.
So, today I suddenly felt like attempting it yet another time from the very start. I know I said I'd figure out where it all went wrong, and I wanted to do that through actually playing with myself to some nice video, but today I just felt like seeing HER again and having her tease me. So I didn't figure out anything for sure, but now I'm prepared and hopefully will get over it.
Spoilers are SPOILERS, so watch at your own risk!

Spoiler: show

I'm kinda a bit nervous though that she may take more steps towards CBT and I will have to skip some, and it'll definitely be a mood breaker. Hopefully, nothing much harder than 5 slaps to the balls.

I can't really add anything about Day1 apart from what I'v said before though, and the same will probably be for tomorrows session, because I don't feel like repeating myself a lot. So this report is not as much on the tease itself but on ME.

[Nezhul]

no, let it be. Not that'll change anything but spoil.

But I would be grateful if you tell me if your other teases may be considered belonging to the same line (same type, stroking + edging, not too rough), like Mistress Sophia, Wifey takes control, Ache for me, Building you up... May post it here or in PM.
Reason I'm asking is that if they ARE the same, I'd like to try them without peeking inside to find out if they are. And if they are different kind, centered on different things, then I don't want to find this out AFTER I started them, if you know what I mean.

[Nezhul]

Second Attempt: Day2
So I just finished day 2 finally, and this time I was prepared* and didn't have an accident. This time I had plenty of time to stare at the pictures, maybe because I'v read the text for the second time, maybe because (as I heard) ruinedoh tweaked the timers... Anyway, not really much things to add about the tease itself. I definitely didn't felt as hot as I did doing it the first time, and I should actually say that the last days were quite easy for me. I mean, I didn't have a proper orgasm for 6 days now, but I don't feel as hot and needy as I felt doing day 2 originally, not during the tease, nor during the day. Yesterday evening I found myself watching some new porn, but I can't say I had a bad nights sleep. It's kinda OK. I would go for an enjoyable orgasm to some good porn right now, and I fantasize a lot, but I manage surprisingly well. It's like wanting for some special food - you will be happy having it, but at the same time you doon't feel like NEEDING it, and some good OTHER food stuffs you just the same.
Now about that ending... I'll use spoiler yet again.

Spoiler: show

Well this time I edged, then waited for it to subside, and only then did my ball slaps. Not too hard, but it still hurt for a few minutes afterwards. I definitely didn't like the pain and don't find it in any way sexual, but I kinda feel good about following her orders completely. That DOESN'T mean I like it still. How can I explain? Well yes, it's a good feeling not skipping orders. But it's definitely not the orders I like in any way, so I'd rather don't have such orders at all. The presence of it, the fact of doing something I don't like to because she asks is not something I would like to experience over and over, it doesn't bring me an good "submissive" feelings. When she denies me or talking about me fucking her with a strap on - now THAT's good and makes me feel submissive to her. But not pain.
Something like that. I'm afraid that there WILL be CBT in future chapters, but I hope to get over it, and that it won't be too much of a leading theme.

Well, now that Day 2 is over, I'm hoping that day 3 will be better. I didn't see it yeat for one thing. I kind of had a sneak peak at day 4 (or 5, don't remember) when it was still in production, and I know some of what will be said and done, but I really hope that doesn't spoil my fun.

*No matter what Illidan may think about it, lol

[Tobias23]

Good luck I hope you can make it! Accidents suck, better be extra careful, I know I will.

And man, has everyone played World of Warcraft on this earth at least once? ^_^

[Nezhul]

Day3
Finally, Day 3! Something new, that is. Today it's already a week since I'v had my last good orgasm, but I don't really feel the NEED to cum still. I want to cum. But it's nowhere near the horniness and need I sometimes get, where I rush home, and the only way I can feel about is watching some great porn and cumming. I'm sleeping well, however I do find myself thinking kinky thoughts more often. When I woke up I couldn't wait to see Lindsay, so I'v pretty much done the tease first thing in the morning.
Incidentally, Yesterday I'v started writing webtease again, but it's not the same thing I'v worked on when I first started this series.
So, the day was nice. I should say it was a bit easier than day2 for me, and it surely was some hot things she was talking to me about. Makes me sigh as I think that, unfortunately, such sweet and cute girls seem to be only written by men in the webteases. Real life I face never got me to know one like that, but I really hope it will...
Anyway, here's a few thoughts about the contents of the tease, that I will encase in a spoiler. Also, a question to ruinedoh there, also a bit spoilery.

Spoiler: show

First of all, the lack of Consecutive edging was both good and disappointing. For one thing I like to do them. But on the other hand not always getting what you want is pretty much about denial. While playing the tease I was constantly like "Here goes... oh, it's just one edge. Well, I know the drill, next time for sure... oh, just one more." And at some point when she started saying that we are almost done, it became aparent that she will not make me go through a series of edges.
That is the reason why this day seems simpler.
The other thing is that she DID continue to throw in a bit of CBT, but, luckily, not any more than a few slaps to the balls per day. Also, lacking practice, I find it hard to slap them hard as she asks. Not because I'm afraid, just they don't seem as hard as I try them doing, but I'm not goung to continue practicing. I can do this much when she asks me, but I still don't find it a sexy and amusing thing to do.

Well, and the question now.
She gave me the video link, but I don't quite get it when I watch it? Before I go to bed and next time first thing in the morning, right?
Also it was a bit confusing that she talked about VideOS, like there's many of them. I know tomorrow session has a video link too, but it would actually be clearer if she talked about them one at a time. Like "You will watch videos every day, todays vide is ....". Instead she says that she will provide me with the links, and end up providing 1 link for 1 video. Just a bit confusing.

[janmb]

Great reading Nez, thanks for sharing

I just wanted to comment on the day 2 accident thing... Putting it in spoiler as well, just to be on the safe side...

Spoiler: show

I've had the same experience many times, if I am really on the edge, slapping can easily push me over, even hard, painful ones. Many teases try to use slaps to get you back down from the edge faster - for me it typically does the exact opposite.

Once I decided to put this to the test - by seeing if I could make myself cum from ball slapping only, without any other stimulation... and the surprising answer is that yes I can. Even light caressing of the balls can get me there and over. It takes time, but it happens as long as I am turned on mentally.

So yeah, ball slapping when edging is something to be done with care

Answer to that very last question in the following spoiler if you want to know.... Not spoiling anything else...

Spoiler: show

You are not missing any videos - I think the plural videOS refered to the fact that you are asked to watch that particular video more than one time.... There may and may not be more videos or none at all in the next few days - you get the links to those videos as you progress through the days - if any....