Fancy1982 wrote: ↑Mon Sep 25, 2023 8:23 am
Hi all, I want to take part here. I have started the tease on 23rd but haven't had an account on milovana so far. But nor here I am!
Player Profile:
Name: Fancy1982
Genderidentity: male
Cage: plasitc midsize to tiny cockcage
Mode:
Cagepoints: 5 (from 23rd) + 6 for the cage
Pledges:
Great, you joined us. The tease will tell you, when to lock up and start scoring the baseline points!
SlenderSissyNewbie wrote: ↑Mon Sep 25, 2023 12:34 pm
Basline points can first be scored in october. For consideration you are free till the tease proclaims lockup.
Sorry, if that wasn't clear enough.
lol only if free means unlocked after I chose deny on 23rd I been denied since and so want to cum already but still unlocked. oh yes I wanted to add my profile as a signature but can not seem to find where to create a signature in the user control panel so put it in manually (any help will be appreciated)
Last edited by sub3604 on Mon Sep 25, 2023 3:32 pm, edited 1 time in total.
Player Profile:
Name: sub3604
Gender Identity Straight Male
Cage: small metal
Mode: 24/7
Baseline cage points 20
Final cage points 1261
If I pick an option, is it possible to change later on? I really want to push myself and go 24/7, but I've only been able to do it for a couple of days so far and I'm not sure how I would manage a whole month... If I pick 24/7 and then find out I can't handle it, can I downgrade to standard? Or can I go with standard and then upgrade to 24/7 when I feel more confident?
chakotay wrote: ↑Mon Sep 25, 2023 4:21 pm
Hi! I have a question regarding modes.
If I pick an option, is it possible to change later on? I really want to push myself and go 24/7, but I've only been able to do it for a couple of days so far and I'm not sure how I would manage a whole month... If I pick 24/7 and then find out I can't handle it, can I downgrade to standard? Or can I go with standard and then upgrade to 24/7 when I feel more confident?
chakotay wrote: ↑Mon Sep 25, 2023 4:21 pm
Hi! I have a question regarding modes.
If I pick an option, is it possible to change later on? I really want to push myself and go 24/7, but I've only been able to do it for a couple of days so far and I'm not sure how I would manage a whole month... If I pick 24/7 and then find out I can't handle it, can I downgrade to standard? Or can I go with standard and then upgrade to 24/7 when I feel more confident?
There'll be a chance to switch things up, but Blake won't tell me when.
And to remember, if you unlock to protect your junk, there are no negative consequences.
Sorry to drag this, but to expand on your answer, and if I understood correctly on today's tease, if I have to take my cage off (because it gets too sore) I don't get my base points for that day, is that it? If so, I guess it's probably better to play it safe then and then hopefully escalate when Mistress Blake gives us a chance...
Hi, I'm arriving late, really excited for this month, Never tried anything like this before. I'm now experimenting if I can sleep with the cage on, but for now I picked the standard option.
This is my main post I will update throughout Locktober, so If you are playing at a later date, there are SPOILERS BELOW.
Player Profile: Name: emma111 Genderidentity: genderfluid (i think?) Cage: midsize plastic (pink) cage (+6 BCP) Mode: Standard (+6 BCP) Total Baseline CP: 12 Cagepoints:
Active:
I pledge to spend at least 15 minutes, twice per week, learning* about my sexuality. (until next Locktober, * within certain rules explained during day 30)
Completed:
I pledge to abstain from porn for seven days in a row. (week 0, +20pts)
I pledge to keep the bodywriting for next 24 hours. (09.10, +20pts)
I pledge now to watch a video (10 min) or listen to an audio (20 min) for the next seven days every day. (01.10-08.10, +40pts)
I pledge that , for the next 7 days, whenever a women asks something from me, I am only allowed to answer "Yes". (08.10-15.10, +50pts)
I pledge to show of my purchases used by me in the forum, as soon as all of them have arrived. (07.10-17.10 +30pts)
I pledge to practice sucking and deepthroating my dildo for next 7 days, at least 10 minutes a day. (13.10 - 22.10, +50pts)
I pledge to watch 60 minutes of porn with my porn-buddy fort the next 7 days (15.10-22.10 , +90pts)
I pledge to lick up and savour all (pre-)cum, I release from now for the next 7 days (22.10-28.10 +50pts).
I pledge to do 20 Minutes of exercise three times a week for the remainder of locktober. (02.10, +60pts)
I pledge to use pink lip balm 3 times a day, once of these 3 in public for the remainder of locktober. (09.10, +50pts)
I pledge to wear a buttplug for at least an hour a day till the end of locktoberfest. (+60pts)
Failed:
I pledged to edge to censored porn for 15 Minutes everyday for a week. (20.10-27.10 50pts) - failed by going over the edge
Rule No.1) You're not allowed to cum during locktober, unless specifically ordered by me or the other mistresses.
Rule No.2) You're not allowed to touch your cock in a sexual way, even if you're not cockcaged for a time during locktober.
Rule No.3) No points, if you unlock for medical reasons, but also no punishment.
Rule No.4) You can unlock 5 minutes for cleaning
Standard Mode Rule You must lock your cockcage after your morning routine and wear it till your bedtime, minimum 8 hours. You can take it off for the night's sleep.
Key: Put the key in an envelope with "Blake's property" written on it.
Address every female you encounter in the tease as Mistress.
I've never tried chastity for longer than 3-4 days, so when I saw this tease I instantly thought I would like to participate. I was lurking Milovana for about 4-5 years and made an account mainly to play this tease. I am still really excited for the 1st of October when I'll no longer have control over my (mistress''?) cage.
Past few parts were really hot, and I was thinking about this tease a lot throughout the day. I was even wondering if this wouldn't distract me too much from my work :). I love the language that is used towards me, and the picture selection also works on me. Mistress Belle part yesterday got me especially excited. I was also warming up for Locktober by locking myself up for longer intervals, so that might have contributed to my feelings. I also appreciate that the game has options for people with different starting points or considerations; most teases don't even think about it.
For me, chastity is a tool that I can use to be a better sub. I have fantasies and goals, but without denial, all these go away right after I orgasm. For example, I tried to sissygasm before and bought many toys, but after a few unsuccessful tries, I stopped. I wasn't consistent enough. I would love for the Locktober to fix that. And of course, there is a lot more stuff than I can improve on as a sub (and skills I can gain), and I would love to correct that before I go search for a dom for me.
As for my kinks, I also love anything with sissification fetish, hypnos, anal, oral, hypnosis etc., but I also understand that it's not for everybody playing this tease, so I keep my expectations low. I can always do more on my own violition :), and I probably will when I'm really horny. At some point, pain and humiliation turns into pleasure for me.
Also, this competition format, gaining points, etc. works perfectly for my sub-mind, and I think I can push my limits just for the satisfaction of earning more points. It's also fun to compete with other slaves.
What I fear is if I can last a whole month in chastity, especially if some unexpected problems arise (like chafing, for example or random events in my life). But my BIGGEST fear is that the site will go down again. There have been some problems for a few days already this year, so I hope we'll be lucky this month and play this tease without any problems.
And finally, I am really grateful to the author. I know that making it work is stressful and takes time, and now people have expectations, critiques, etc., and you are just doing this in your free time. Great work so far.
Wow, what a week!
First, I would like to go over my feelings and experiences throughout the week.
The first thing I want to talk about is shaving. It's good that I bought a trimmer and hair removal cream; this combination helps me shave without razor burns and is effective for longer (it is also a lot easier to shave some places than with a razor). I shaved everything. I've shaved my legs from time to time, so having smooth legs is nothing new, but it was the first time I ever shaved my arms. Furthermore, I still can't get used to how smooth and feminine they look now that I'm typing this.
Next was trying to get a dry orgasm. I did try a lot, I came a lot, and I edged a lot, but the only thing that happened was that the refractory period was getting longer and my orgasms were getting weaker. Maybe I didn't edge enough before each of the orgasms? My final orgasm was the weakest of them all, with only a small droplet of cum oozing out, which was pretty unsatisfying and probably why I've been horny since day 1 :P. I had to use ice to get into the cage. Maybe my body was subconsciously trying to defend itself?
I took the pornfree pledge, and what I didn't consider before was that I often come across a lot of stuff that could be classified as porn. So I had to block some manhwa's and manga's I was reading, limit browsing Instagram, TikTok, Twitter, etc.
I really liked the hypnosis session. I blocked my other senses and enjoyed what I was hearing, letting go of all my thoughts. Not only that, but I fancied it enough to take hypno pledge for a week (only a week? :()
The workout session wasn't anything special, but I appreciate that Mistress uses her control over me to improve my physical health. I often don't prioritize it. It's also good that I didn't select running, as I had to use lube around my cage and reposition it a few times because it was rubbing during the workout.
On the 3rd of October, I woke up earlier to send a message to somebody, and I always lock up the cage right after waking up, so I did just that and then took a quick 30-minute nap. Then I had a dream that I was jerking off my cock. It felt real; I "felt" the touch of my hand and friction on my foreskin, and then BAM, I woke up to my small pink cage and my locked-up penis trying to get hard. That kind of fucked up my morning routine, but I appreciated how horny I got. That day also my legs were starting to get sore after yesterday's workout, so a guided meditation session and Wim Hof method really helped me to get my mind clear and my body relaxed.
One funny thing that has also happened yesterday and today is that when I shower and take off my cage to clean it, I have to use ice-cold water on my balls to get soft again. I have to endure a little torture for a bit of hygiene :x.
=====================================
That's all for the daily journal part, and now for "deepest and hopefully naughtiest thoughts"...
As I've said a week prior, my favorite fetishes revolve around sissification, BDSM, and humiliation. As I am still a BDSM virgin, most of mine fantasies include finding a dominant partner to explore our own kinks.
For some examples of fantasies I have (I'm not mentioning my limits, which I would consider IRL here, or safewords, or anything that would be required in a real BDSM relationship here):
- I would love to hand over control over my own body to a real mistress/master, so that I can be a useful slave for them, prioritizing their needs before my own.
- They'd use chastity and denial as a tool for my obedience.
- I don't like pain (e.g. CBT), but I would like it to be used against me.
- They'd punish me for disobedience but also reward me if I did a good job.
- I'd practice my oral and anal skills for them so that I could please them (and whoever else they wanted me to please).
- They would feminize me and make me wear pretty lingerie and makeup just to destroy all of that during the session by abusing me.
- I'd love to be tied up, used, and left
- Normal orgasms would be a rarity, and even then, they would probably be ruined to keep me horny and exploring other ways of achieving satisfaction.
- A man would make me cum a minute before their own orgasm. As I am not AS attracted to men, and not nearly AS slutty when not horny that would be deeply humiliating (probably), forced to swallow his semen, when I am not aroused.
- They'd degrade me however they want, whether it's A2M, piss-play, cum-eating, spitting, body writing, photo-taking, or whatever else they find will humiliate me.
- They'd use hypno so that some of the lessons stay ingrained in my mind, whether I like it or not.
- Their influence on me would be more pervasive, whether it's in my private life, my mind, or my body.
I sometimes also have darker fantasies that seem pretty hot, but of course those better stay forever as fantasies, but one can always dream :).
It will probably be a long text again, but I really want to express myself and put my thoughts into words. I will probably keep a journal like this one (but maybe not only for NSFW stuff) after Locktober. I feel it's really therapeutic and makes me reflect on who I am and what I like. I guess I don't do too much thinking about myself without context, like journaling.
Day 5:
Surprise inspection, well, surprised me; there wasn't a lot of hair, but at the same time, I wasn't proud of myself for not keeping up the appearance or for my laziness. So I did shave and have a nice, relaxing spa day.
It was also the first time I shared photos of myself as a sub with a stranger (and how many at once!, site says they were seen 600 times; if only 10% of these are real people, than I am kind of shocked, thought It would be more like 15; it's exciting, scary, and humiliating at the same time, hard to put into words.
Day 6:
This day taught about the power of submissive acts of service. I greatly enjoyed tasks I wouldn't have otherwise, just because I was doing them for somebody and I wanted to please them.
And I got reminded how bad I am with names; I instantly forgot them .
Day 7:
Not all the items from the shopping task have yet arrived, and I pledged to show all of them in use. Kinda excited, but also I want to look good in these photos (meaning shaved, and now I got a bad razor burn ), and I don't yet know how I am going to show the biggest dildo (larger version of one I already had) I have in use. I really didn't think this through, as it probably won't fit without a LOT of preparation.
I like that Mistress thought of buying both sexy and naughty things.
Day 8:
I took the yes, mistress pledge, but it didn't really change my life much. I guess I was already helpful to women around me, and I do (though sometimes begrudgingly) help with small stuff.
This is also when I made an additional pledge from the event to use my pink lip balm three times a day, and Mistress Blake added that one of those must be in public. I really enjoy this task; it's a nice little thing to remind me of by my submission thought the day, and other people don't think about it (although I do too much), and I feel like my lips are in better condition already . I also go for a relaxing walk to do this task if, on a given day, I am working remotely. This also makes me sleep better.
Day 9:
This was the body writing task, and again, it's something I only did a few times before; I don't know why. I was really horny for the whole duration; on any other day, I wasn't leaking as much; I had to keep a towel under me when writing. Also, I realized how hard it is to write upside down and that I made some mistakes. The writing was uneven, and what I wrote felt perfectly humiliating at the moment, but not so much when horniness died down.
I kept it for 24 hours, because regardless, it wouldn't fade away after the first shower. I had to scrub with a loofah after 24 hours to really get rid of it. I also had to be extra careful to not go out my room in my shorts or without a shirt like I sometimes do
I also shared photos of this task; I don't know why. It wasn't part of the task, but I've seen someone else do it, and it felt right. It feels so nice to see other slaves also doing the same task—their thoughts, their pictures, their progress—so I wanted to contribute to that too.
Day 10:
I wrote a lot about my experience of day 10 in the update post, but it was a great exploration of what I like, and I feel I understood a little better what rope-bunnies find so fun, relaxing, and deep about it. It's also good that I did some yoga exercises (for my weekly workout pledge) before this task, so I was stretched and warmed up.
Overall:
Once again, another great week and many new or revisited experiences for me. I feel like i am growing under Mistress Blake and that's the most important. It's only been 10 days, one third of the way, and this tease already makes me feel that I should prepare and when I am educated enough go search for a dom in my local community. I am researching how it all works and really leaning not just fulfilling a kink .
Thank you, SlenderSissyNewbie for your work and bringing us here together!
As my daily thoughts are getting more detailed with each day (see update log). I'd love to talk more about my general feelings.
18 days already, meaning I am now closer than further from the goal. But it doesn't feel easier. Normally, at this point, during the third week, I would have probably calmed down, get accustomed to chastity, and stop being so damn horny .
But here this devious week, thanks to introducing more teasing, unlocking and even porn-watching with my buddy was probably the hardest yet. At this point, every Mistress Blake's order only makes me hornier. I'd probably even gladly repeat the ballbusting task from the beginning of the week, even though I still remember the pain.
I love how Mistress slowly removes layers of my inhibitions. I would never imagine posting photos of myself ( ), or going in public with dirty audio playing in my headphones when I started this tease. That's also an important lesson for my future partner. I have to instruct them to use chastity, to make me more agreeable and less annoying to control and it also suppresses my own dom side quite a bit.
I also love how sensitive I am right now, getting hard just by unlocking, sucking my dildo, or playing with my nipples, how I explore every other possible outlet for my horniness. Maybe my body is starting to understand it won't get the release it craves the usual way so it heightens other senses?
At this point, I am starting to get desperate enough that I regret I wasn't doing 24/7 chastity instead. Every time I unlock, whether it's for cleaning or because of pain during the night I get nasty thoughts of failing my Mistress and it's getting harder to get back into my cage . I will manage though. I've spent way too much time and energy to fail at this point.
I hope to form even more thoughts about myself and summarize them next week, because this tease, starting merely as a hot thing to jump into (I even made an account after years of lurking) made me learn some things about myself.
In conclusion, my body wants this month to end, but my brain doesn't want to get out of this blissful subspace it is currently in .
Sharing it only on the forum, but honestly it's probably way more public than any blog I could publish this to .
Wow, I can't believe it's the last assigned reflection post I am writing. Of course, I'll continue to include my reflections in daily posts, but they'll probably be shorter. This one I had to rewrite many times because it was a mess with how many different thoughts I was trying to put out there.
The time flew by so quickly (excluding times when I got incredibly horny ). I started this tease with little experience in chastity and created an account after years of lurking. That was perhaps my best kink-wise decision of my life (at least yet). The exploration and learning I did will likely result in changes in my life in the future that I am probably not yet completely aware of. It sparked my interest in the BDSM community, and I began researching books, youtube channels and other resources on the subject (and not just unrealistic porn like before). I'll also aim to connect with my local community soon.
To be honest, before, when I was doing teases myself, I occasionally cheated, skipped tasks, and merely imagined actually performing some of them; it was enough to suppress my urges. I mean, they were just jerk-off material to me .
But Locktoberfest is different; actually reporting tasks, seeing other real people struggle, and having an organizer who pours their heart and soul into their work made me obedient. If I cheated right now, it would feel like cheating myself and all of you, by extension.
So even though I can separate the illusion, and fantasty part from reality well, this aspect of accountability made me feel very submissive and at the mercy of Mistress Blake. And I really enjoyed letting go of control. Mistress pushed my boundaries like nothing else did before .
Last week was full of ups and downs for me, but it will likely just serve to strengthen the experience and make me remember it more vividly in the future. Locktoberfest would not be as exciting or unique without a little bit of challenge.
I guess if I just put on my cage on October 1st and did not do anything else for a month, then I'd probably be frustrated for a few days, but at some point I would just forget about the cage without much trouble . The constant teasing, remainders, and tug of war that is going on in my brain keeps it fun!
And if your level of subservience keeps getting higher and higher day by day, then a crash or subdrop is inevitable upon intense session or failure. It was a really teaching experience to feel such a crash for the first time and learn how to get out of it thanks to this tease (and personal help from SlenderSissyNewbie ). I hope that all of you who have not experienced it yet will steel your minds for end of Locktober.
Overall, this month made me learn a lot:
- from practical skills thanks to pledges and daily tasks, where, for example, regular exercising improves my mood and regular sexual tasks keep me on edge .
- different kinks that are there, and what part of them I find arousing , why do I enjoy them, and which parts are not so fun in reality,
- about struggles of different kink-minded people doing this with me ,
- a lot about myself, how my mind operates, both when being subby and not, and how I and my future partner can use this to improve myself ,
- a little more about who I want to be and with whom I want to be
- and obviously as you see, that I really like journaling .
The most important thing this tease made me realize though is that the fantasies that have been bottling up inside of me for years can have an outlet. I am now looking towards finding a partner to explore these together. A step I probably wouldn't have considered a month ago. It's a lot easier to just read some erotica, play some quick tease, watch a femdom video, and be done. But that's a temporary solution, an easy cheat to something that is hidden deeper and needs a lot of hard work, both on myself and on the relationship part. I have solidified that my sexuality, orientation and identity are a lot more complicated than what is considered "normal", or "expected", and I want to express and free that part of me. Chastity helped me to shift my focus from just satisfying my temporary lust to satisfying my long-term desire. It also freed my of layers of inhibitions and expectations placed upon me externally and subconsciously. Lust and quick relief probably also clouded my thinking. It's a long journey ahead of me, but I know I'll come out a better, stronger, prouder and more satisfied person afterwards.
I love that the tease left a lot of room to explore. There were a lot of adjustments that were possible, and nothing was necessarily strict. That kept it realistic; taking preferences and experience into consideration is something a good dom would do, and not a lot of teases do that (and they don't have to if they want to cater to a specific audience). This allowed me to keep my own pace and also see different experiences people had with the same tasks. But in the end the task part was only a small part why I liked this tease so much, what I like the most is everything around it.
When talking about different experiences, then making an account, posting those lengthy updates (sorry), and reading your updates felt really unique. We are all a bunch of strangers on the internet, sharing only the fact of being locked and serving Mistress Blake for a month, but nevertheless, I feel a connection to each of you and your struggles.
I really want to thank SlenderSissyNewbie for organizing this, making forum events, keeping track of the results, being helpful, and accommodating in the DM's. It wouldn't be possible without your massive amount of work, sis. I also want to thank all of you participating, especially those who post here. I read everything (including yours, XD81 thanks for the shoutout ).
And for some reason, this sounds like the tease is ending right now with all the thanking I did, but no, there are still some days left. But being honest, I am not really looking forward to the grand finale, as in the back of my head, there is a thought that I don't really need to unlock my cage, and what matters more is the journey not the goal. I really enjoy the current state of my mind . I wonder if we will meet for the next Locktober and what changes would have occured in our lives since.
I do the audio ones laying down, wearing sleep mask to block all light, and closed back headphones to completely immerse myself in sound
Sissy Chasity Trance - Princess Fae (i was getting hard in my cag at the beginning but after few minutes it was fine, but I couldn't relax the way the video asked me too :/)
Bambi Sleep (Going back to the classic for the rest of the days, I never did more than few sessions of these, so I will fix that, careful these are really powerful)
And I will keep doing the bambi sleep for the rest of the month, whenever I have enough time to relax .
- 02.10 resistance band training mainly focusing on legs, light cardio and static stretching after, 60+ minutes week 1:
- 03.10 25min cardio tabata workout
- 05.10 resistance band full body workout, ~30 min, and 10min stretching
- 07.10 30 min. yoga from a YT video week 2:
- 10.10 another yoga video in the series for beginners
- 12.10 HIIT training
- 14.10 yoga week 3:
- 17.10 1,5h walk (alternating quick and slower pace)
- 19.10 yoga
- 21.10 resistance band full body workout, volume mainly focusing on legs week 4:
- 24.10 yoga
- 26.10 resistance band FBW
- 28.10 some cardio loop week 5:
- 31.10 FBW
Name: awayaway411
Gender Identity: male
Cage: silicone small cage
Mode: privacy
Baseline CP: ?+4 (i can't see how much points the silicone small cage gives)
I'm glad I found this just in time, would love to join. Thank you for organizing this for Mistress Blake Just caught up on the last 2 days and read through today. This is my profile:
Name: Uce Genderidentity: Male
Cage: Plastic midsize cage (I do have a flat metal cage, maybe there will be an opportunity to use it next month, but it's not for long wear) Mode: Privacy Baseline CP: 10 (6+4)
Having spent most of my adult-life exploring my sexuality and desires I have come to realise as I approach the big six ‘O” that most of my time I spent in this exploration was very much driven by hormones and a strong sense of lust, curiosity, and experimentation.
These days however my choices and need to satisfy my libido is much more selective; much more. This has meant that while my hormones and lust are no longer in the driving seat what has taken its place is a sense of reflecting on who I am and what I am comfortable with expressing when engaging in such activities.
This has led to me taking part in this online challenge, as, while I know that I am submissive in a sexual sense and in many ways would love to return to being submissive in a wider context – life and its demands have meant that I can no longer for the foreseeable future balance this ‘beta’-ness with everyday life. This acceptance does however come with some down-sides when my libido goes through the roof, and so far, my involvement with Milovana as a passive consumer has been able to satisfy these moments.
Recently though signs have started to show that the desire for more subby-ness needs to be listened to and this is where taking part in Locktoberfest, for me, has come at the right time. I have been in chastity before, and have been owned 24/7 by several Mistresses over the years, so the fact of being told what to do and being assigned tasks is not something I am new to.
What I am new to is doing this online and through the interaction with a web-tease. It will be interesting to see how and in what direction it develops.
Suffice to say that there is a potential that this could be the subby-ness interaction that I need at present.
Let’s see….
Last edited by Drewstix57 on Sun Oct 15, 2023 6:13 am, edited 7 times in total.
Awayaway411 wrote: ↑Mon Sep 25, 2023 5:45 pm
Player profile:
Name: awayaway411
Gender Identity: male
Cage: silicone small cage
Mode: privacy
Baseline CP: ?+4 (i can't see how much points the silicone small cage gives)
Cage points: 5
tiny silicone would be 6, so I put you on the board with 10.
oh yes I wanted to add my profile as a signature but can not seem to find where to create a signature in the user control panel so put it in manually (any help will be appreciated)
. 
), and I don't yet know how I am going to show the biggest dildo (larger version of one I already had) I have in use. I really didn't think this through, as it probably won't fit without a LOT of preparation. 
.
), or going in public with dirty audio playing in my headphones when I started this tease. That's also an important lesson for my future partner. I have to instruct them to use chastity, to make me more agreeable and less annoying to control and it also suppresses my own dom side quite a bit.
. I will manage though. I've spent way too much time and energy to fail at this point.
.
. The constant teasing, remainders, and tug of war that is going on in my brain keeps it fun! 
.
,
.
Just caught up on the last 2 days and read through today. This is my profile:
