Since this is a new thread, I’ll just start it by pointing out what I believe is necessary to know to understand the current state of things. Firstly; as the title states I’m in chastity and has surrendered control of my orgasms to the Milovana user Yes_Indeed; secondly it’s been 20 weeks (on February the 11th) since my last orgasm; thirdly since we are situated in different countries I’ve been using plastic locks with a serial, my current one is 028731.
The previous threads describe my journey up to this point, as well as the tasks and rules YI has imposed on me up until this point. The current rules I operate under, is that I’m to wear female underwear, as in stockings (and garters), panties as well as nail polish (on my toenails) 6 days a week. Besides my clothing I’m to fuck a dildo every morning and evening, while being dressed as above. This is to be done while watching porn in the category of: Shemale, sissy, chastity or gay.
All of this makes a somewhat intriguing mixture, as I usually need to be aware of what I do in my daily life, unless I want people to get a view of my secret dress code. This is especially nerve wrecking as it isn’t possible to always stay aware of what you do. For example, a simple act such as kneeling to tie my shoelaces usually means something is exposed (!). What I mostly fear in this regard is that I one day get so used to the clothes, that I stop worrying and actually slip up, which has been somewhat close before.
While I enjoy my daily fuckings , the fact that I’m constantly in chastity, means it’s also very frustrating. I don’t think I’ve had a session which didn’t end with me leaking. It also means I’m going to bed, or off to work, with the feeling of having just been stretched and used, which is a nice feeling although somewhat distracting in its eroticism. It also means I’m more or less spending my entire day with this feeling.
While I’m not restricted to only watch the porn genres previously described, I’m required to watch them while fucking myself. As these genres are not what I usually see, it’s a strange predicament I find myself in, since I try and be a good sport about it, I usually try and relate to whoever is the receiving part of the fuckings, and mimic the thrusts they receive.
Besides these rules, I’ve always been very much into anal stimulation, and have been allowed to use my toys freely. This usually means that I spend my time home in my apartment with a plug in place. While this does nothing to relieve me of my frustration (quite the opposite actually) I really enjoy the pressure it adds, and usually try to keep it in for the 5-6 hours I have from I get home, until my good night fucking.
At this point in time, it’s been a while since I reached the point, where my denial resulted in my mind perceiving far more things as erotic, which I usually wouldn’t perceive as such. For example a certain user in the Milovana chat (Krissy) got me somewhat fascinated with the concept of being able to deepthroat, although it seems like my dildo is a bit too massive for me to practice that, I’ve actually considered getting a long thin one for this purpose alone :S. It also means I spend quite a bit of time looking for new toys, where the recent ones I’ve been considering are the plugs in below pictures. I’m considering them because I’m playing with the idea of sleeping with my ass plugged, although I believe I’ll need a plug with a slim “neck” to achieve that.
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. Working full time makes it somewhat easier, it's whenenever I'm at Home and have time to get frustrated it's tough 
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